| Sunday, November 16, 2003 |
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Nov. 16, 2003
For someone who could not get started I sure am on a roll. That's good. I know there will be days when I won't have anything to write here.
I was thinking a lot about something today. I don't have many enemies, but one that I have has been giving me a lot of trouble lately. I am sometimes fooled into thinking he's completely gone and never going to return, but he's always quietly lurking in the shadows getting stronger and waiting for the perfect opportunity to attack. He is back and is louder and stronger than ever.
His name is Mr. Doubter and he crushes dreams where ever he goes. Every time I do something, he's here to tell me how bad it is, that I'm not good enough, that I'm just pretending to be something that I'm not and never will be. I have tried everything to shut him up, to make him stop, to make him go away forever, but he won't leave me alone.
I show him the articles I wrote, and say, "See it must be good, it was published." He just shakes his head and laughs.
I tell him the nice things people say about my work, and he replies, "Oh there just being nice, they don't want to tell you what they really think." Then he tells me to stop all this silliness and go backto my real job. He's even nice about it, "you were good at that."
I'm afraid Mr. Doubter will always be here, I'm just going to have to find a way to live with him, and not allow him to stop me. How I'll do this I don't know.
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posted by Kelly @ 11/16/2003 04:37:00 PM   |
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