Kelly Gibbons, artist and writer, about me

Tuesday, December 02, 2003

Dec. 2, 2003

I am trying not to have this journal be about writing, but since that is my obsession these days, it just seems to be going in that direction. Anyway, the writing has not been that great. I think I would have been better off not having lucky breaks in the beginning because it made it seem so easy. Now that things aren't as easy and reality is setting in and my freelance assignment is coming to the end, I am starting to panic. What will I do for money? The dreamer in me keeps telling me to follow my heart and the money will follow. This is hard as I watch the check book balance steadily decline. Following my heart has brought me some wonderful things though, and for now I will continue to follow my heart.

I got myself out of a rut--a few really bad days of tremendous self doubt--by doing something creative. And it wasn't writing--lately it is never writing, but that is another issue. I made some very cool candle holders that I would love to sell. I am not sure how to do this, but I am going to try. If nothing comes of that, I will give them as gifts for Christmas. The experience was worth it.

I had fun creating and making them. It was very relaxing, and it made me stop worrying so much about writing. It gave me something else to focus on, and another idea how to earn money while continuing to write. I gave one to my best friend and I liked the reaction I got. "I think you've got something here, you could sell these." It always helps when someone else backs up what you are thinking.

Another thing I learned this week is that it is good to listen to the advice of others, but at times you need to do what is best for you. What works perfect for one person might not be right for another. Everyone has different circumstances that influence the outcome. Do what you think is best, after all no one really knows you like you know yourself. I hope that makes sense on paper, cause in my head it was very inspiring!

posted by Kelly @ 12/02/2003 04:51:00 PM

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