| Monday, May 03, 2004 |
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It is Monday, and it is raining, and I gave up a project with a potentially huge payoff over the weekend and I feel happy, excited, calm and more relaxed than I have in weeks. So, am I nuts?
My guess is that some people will think so, but many more people will not. My opinion is that the project I was working on (no matter how wonderful it appeared on the outside) was wrong for me and I made the right decision by giving it up.
My desire to be creative lessened the longer I worked on the project, and I started to doubt myself and my artistic abilities. This started to spill into other areas of my life. I was moody, angry, easily irritated, always upset, I was short with people and I felt like giving up writing and art forever because they were not fun anymore.
I made the decision to quit the project on Friday and by Sunday I felt like a different person. I might have thrown away the winning lottery ticket, but I don't care. I got a glimpse of the person I might become if I continued and I didn't like that person very much. She was too much like the person I left in the cubicle.
Letting go of some things seems so hard and scary, but when I look back at things that I release I see that when I was holding on to these things was the time that I was scared and miserable. When I finally found the courage to let go things became easy. If something isn't working you need to let it go, so you can make room for something that will.
By letting go of this, I feel that I have opened up doors for bigger and better things. I can't wait to find out what they are.
Running UPDATE:
I made it through week one and today I begin week 2 . I will increase my running time to 3 minutes intervals and decrease my walking time to 3 minute intervals. It felt great to make it through the first week. At times, it was easier than I thought it would be and I was going to increase the difficulty by running more, but I stopped myself because this is why I usually don't complete things. I do more than I should too fast and then my enthusiasm wanes, so I am happy to say that I stuck with the plan and I am still excited with the training. I have to constantly remind myself that babies crawl before they walk and running comes after walking and falling many times. |
posted by Kelly @ 5/03/2004 08:19:00 AM   |
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