Kelly Gibbons, artist and writer, about me

Friday, November 17, 2006

The Circle

I was offered a full time position at the College where I am currently employed part-time. I really like my job, so this is a very tough decision for me. But, I could really use the money that goes along with the full-time position. I've been trying to find a way to come up with extra money, and this job came along. It's a good job, a great work environment, great pay and benefits (including free education for me and eventually for my kids). It's tough to pass up, but so is turning my back on my dreams.

In some ways, that's what I feel like I will be doing if I take the job.

As I try to decide what path to take (or in this case, what job to pick), I'll use any means possible to make the right decision. I analyze dreams. I ask others what to do. I blog. I might resort to flipping a coin. I ask questions, then pick up a book, flip to a page and read what it says:

Should I take the full time job? How will it affect the pursuit of my dream of being a writer and an artist?

Answer from the book, The Circle by Laura Day:

Your inner self will wage battle upon you if you sacrifice one part of your being for another. In fact, most of us live in this condition to some degree. When you realize the ways in which your desires can oppose each other, you can negotiate between them. The idea is to minimize the conflict by allowing it to produce solutions. You will be surprised by how ingenious you are at finding solutions within The Circle.

I interpreted this as I can and must find ways to incorprate all parts of my life that are important to me. In other words, this job is being offered to me because the extra money and other benefits it offers are important to me right now, but I can't push aside the other things that are important to me. I must (and can) find time for art, writing, exercise, family, freinds and all of the other things that make me who I am (and make me happy). It might mean designating certain times for these things (truthfully, this will probably give me more time to do them anyway). More truth: by doing this, I will probably devote more time to these things than I do now.

I have been wishing for more money, and I think this is the oppurtunity that was presented to me because I asked. Maybe it's not time for me to questions things, maybe it's time to have a little faith and accept what the universe is offering. Maybe it's time to let go without knowing all the answer, and just believe that the answers will come at there own pace when the time is right. All things happen for a reason, right? And, we don't always have to know why.

posted by Kelly @ 11/17/2006 10:33:00 PM

1 Comments:

At November 18, 2006 6:31 AM, gr said…

Hard to pass up free education when you have young twins! Sounds like it could be helpful...